break from 30 day..

okay. so this is what has been goin on in my life.

• i'm doin Jillian Michaels 30 day shred. im gonna lose 20 pounds in the next while, snitches. i'm serious. no more nadeene, the fat girl. i'm 21, at my PRIME and should be beautiful and thin. so i need to lose weight, get healthy, and put on makeup for heavens sake.

• i did squats with corbin on my back the other day. we laughed so hard.

• friends of the elderly is going wonderfully, and i'm mad i havent blogged about it more. tonight i talked alot with a man who has polio, married 'the sweetest woman who ever lived' and gave me advice about living a happy life. i also talked with marion, born in norway and cute as a button. i just love my group. they make me so happy..i cant even tell you how glad i am i have this opportunity

• classes are okay. lots of reading textbooks which i'm not good at...but my program is great and i'm so excited for my profession. it feels so right and i just love learning how to help people. there are so many different things i could go into...adoptions, international work, elderly care, medical, criminal, rehab groups, and sooo many more. my practicum assignment is coming up soon, (where i'll be interning next year) and i'm super excited. but when i told my dad i wanted to maybe go do juvinile probation, he said i'd get shot. ha.

• i'm watching titanic.. and i think i should have been born back then. the dresses..the fabulous hats.. the red lipstick. COME ON!

•  i need a job for the summer... anyone know of any sweet nanny jobs? mucho money? in a mucho awesome place?

• for christmas i got another lovey dovey book, "Love Letters of Great Men". its great and i think i've mentioned it on here before. men back then used to be classy and they used to write letters to their loves. exerpt? sure.

 My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine
ever mine
ever ours

-Beethoven

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sigh.

•  today christy left a funny, but serious ad on the table for me to see.

"MISSING: Rocco the 3 legged jack-russel.
He is a special needs dog, and there will be a reward!! 
He has three legs and is has a serious condition called hemophelia, so please find him!!!"
rofl

• and, guess what i found out. random fact: the voice actress who played 'snow white' was never allowed to be in another movie by disney, because she was so ugly they didnt want snow's image to be ruined. HA. cruel.

anyways, goodbye.

updates, legos and fish.

i've been M.I.A lately. sorry.

lately:
I've been hating the recent snow. hate hate hate. instead of going outside and doing normal daily tasks, i watch animal planet and eat cookies with my roommates.

speaking of cookies, i keep gaining that stupid winter fatty weight from Nadeene and its killin me.

harry potter 7= epic. i love everything about the magical world of witchcraft and wizardry. and someone...got a very special letter from that school.. i'll post pictures soon.

i cant get enough of 'no doubt' lately. i just love em. maybe cuz my friend nannies for gwen.. but seriously. i love her.

i nanny for 2 sweet little boys a few days here in logan. here are some funny things i've been meaning to post..

corbin: and then we crashed the lego cars off the cliff and pretended they exploded!
blake: corbin, that is violent. (sincerely with a thoughtful look) i just.. dont get violence.

corbin: i want to play my legos in PEACE!!!!

corbin: you shouldnt feed fishsticks to fish. thats like having a human eat their arm.

Happy Friday

3 A.M.

What else is new?

I feverishly consumed 2 reeses eggs and 1 cadbury creame egg today in my truck right after i put my last bag of groceries in. WHAT. Nadeene has been visiting lately no matter how much turbo jam i try to fit in with heather. (My roommate/bff works out everyday. bless her heart. i only last like 5-7 minutes when i try...and trying consists of taking a break every other minute and sitting on my floor pretending to do the work out with her. Go heath.) (ps. she just got engaged. holla.)

I'm a freakin creep. i stalk a few certain little blogs everyday. waste of time? sure. do i care? no.

also, i've been stalking photo blogs lately. like tumbler and i can read. and crap like that. its kewl. makes me excited for when i buy my new camera! cross your fingers that i'll have the guts to spend that many bones on one single item. Worth it? i hope. I'll use it to take pictures for years and years, right? like of my future babies and stuff? i mean like.. when i have them. haha.

I've been playin so much Mario Kart lately that on my drive home to kaysville today, I imagined hitting the car infront of me with a red shell. And then i wished for a golden mushroom and maybe a lightning bolt so i could get there before i fell asleep. Get a life you say? Nah. I already have an infinite amount of lives on Mario Kart. Send all the shells you'd like, biznatches. The ladies of apt 6c are gamers.

My sister saw my little book of mormon quote tab on my igoogle today. she asked me what it was for. i said it was so i could get to heaven. she informed me i need alot more than a google tab to get to heaven. touche sister, touche.

This week i volunteered at the crisis nursery. little baby had 2 little seizures when i was with him. he smelled. not like a baby smell. not like poopy diapers or spit up or anything. like... baby needs to be bathed smell. Made my heart ache a bit.

Also at the crisis nursery, i asked one little boy if he remembered my name. he said in the deepest bully voice he could muster, "Uh, don't know, don't care!" I laughed. Hard.

I made a little speedway ramp for one of the toddlers out of traintracks and diaper bags so he could race his cars on them. i loved how when he would push his car down the ramp, he'd say, "FIRE!"

Then another worker asked me if i had brothers growing up because i had so many good ideas to entertain this little boy. HA.

In my Social Work 2100 class today, the guest speaker (an old professor) started crying when he was talking about how he loves to help people. It made my heart glad.

We also talked about helping our future clients find their Niche in society. A niche is pretty much where you fit in relative to your surroundings. So, my goal is to find my niche.

I know its definitely not in STATS 1040 cuz i am 99% out of 100% positive that it is relatively likely i bombed the quiz today along with the other 50% of the class that sleeps at random intervals during Docta Cutlah's lectures. Following the normal curve, of course.

I talked to this boy about a recent upset i had. He said something that i loved. He said that when he gets in situations like that, like heartbreak, he has to move on or else he's damned. literally. He can't progress in life if he is stuck in the past. And progression is what its all about, duh. Made me wanna not waste my time on wishing for things that should be unwishable.

Happy Friday

(this picture made me happy)

Food Fail.

When asked WHY we went to Smith's and what on earth made us purchase copious amounts of unhealthy food.. all me and livvy could do was explain that "...we were sad!!" So we got jelly beans, cinnamin lips, two packages of cookies, 5- 12 packs of dr. pepper and diet coke, pretzels, snickers, m&m's, and reeses.. Mind you, this was gone within 2 days. College is stressful okay!?!? At least it wasn't nutella, right? :( Pretty soon I'm gonna be on the news and will have to be lifted out of my apartment with a crane. Oh well. At least i'll get my own TLC special on how fat i am. I bet Nadeene is rubbing her chubby little hands together in victory...

Thumbs up to Nadeene for ruining my life and foiling my plans to eat healthier.

p.s. thanks for this michelle.

Please meet: Nadeene

So, i have this friend...well a foe actually..and she is a little girl who is really, really fat. and she lives inside of me. Sometimes, like over thanksgiving weekend and after other major holidays, she comes out to taunt me and she makes me gain 6 pounds in 2 days. Lets call her Nadeene. She looks something like this:





Nadeene is terrible. She has been coming out of her shell lately and its really starting to piss me off..She makes me the kind of girl who is sitting in her bed at 1 in the morning with nutella and pretzels...who is feverishly licking the chocolate off her fingers from dipping deep into the hazelnut spread so that the greedy little fat girl inside of me can get every last bit of chocolately pleasure. and then..i look down and realize i've consumed a whole jar of nutella in less than 12 hours. and i am ashamed. and she is victorious.

And THEN.. she does stuff like throw things in my cart when i'm grocery shopping!! She does it sly so i don't notice. I imagine its sorta like a grab-and- toss-behind-the-back kinda thing. So there i am at the checkstand and all these items are embarrassing me because only a CHILD would live off of them..and nadeene is very pleased inside. very, very pleased. pleased because the checker thinks that i have a goal of reaching 250 pounds, and pleased because she has won. This is serious business folks.



The fat girl inside me MUST be stopped! Operation starvation is starting! (not really starvation, just operation eat at LEAST one healthy thing a day to replace all the chocolate i consume. starvation just rhymes well.)

Prepare to die little fat girl, prepare to die.