Thanks Rache

mmmmm. you are so great. so domestic and so great. i love you

seriously.

lets take a look at the winners i've dated. and lets hope none of them ever see this.

there was..
a. the boy who played games with my heart for approximately 6 years.
b. the boy who i was crazy about for WAY too long and wasted an extra two years on..but is now getting married. (i hope you reproduce ugly, ugly children.)
c. the boy who cheated on me and now needs AA meetings regularly
d. the boy who despised the thought of me being his 'girlfriend' but still wanted to kiss me and yell at me
e. the boy who wanted to get married after 10 days
f. the boy who dtr's on the second date


must i go through the whole freaking alphabet to show you how TERRIBLE and MESSED UP the man store is that i've been shopping at!? Isn't it about time a new store popped up!? Seriously, either bless me with a good one or make me infertile so i can give up my life to the peace corps and contract aids by helping little children somewhere. or maybe i'll just dedicate my life to becoming a surgeon and be all dark and twisty and just be immoral with all the hot doctors. (kidding about the immoral part). Come on now. You think after a,b,c,d,e, and f, I'd get a good one. but NOOOOO. i keep finding out that this certain couple is getting married.. or these two people are secretly dating..or this person is going to pop the question soon.....
BITE ME!

i quit dating. quit it. done. over. zero dating in my life. zilch. zippo. goose egg.

the surgeon option wins. operation meredith grey here i come.

i got the hog virus

the fates must be laughing their butts off at me right now...because i have had the worst string of bad luck the past little while...possibly the worst string of luck since i was four years old when the most terrible day of my life occured..(kristin.) i won't rant now, because my brain hurts. but hey guys, here's the most recent picture of me..


i imagine it to be screaming something to the effect of, "KILL ME NOW."

quote of the day

"the spirit cannot dwell in uncleanliness....or where there are scary bugs." - elder koenen

and

"everytime you DON'T support an aggie, A BABY COUGAR IS BORN!!!" -mr. usu

there are moments..

sometimes, i have these moments where i feel like falling apart. i know that most times im the crazy girl and the girl who does weird voices..haha okay, thats funny..but really. lately i've just felt like crawling into a hole and dying. i've felt stressed about school and keeping my grades up, and being the good student that i know i can be if i try hard enough. and managing my money and figuring out how to organize my time wisely..and lately i've felt like any boy i have feelings for, or even think about having feelings for.. just throws it back in my face. and everytime i put my heart on the line, i know whats coming but i do it anyway. i know i'm gonna be sitting at my bed at one in the morning crying because i thought i could trust them. i know that i hate myself for pitying myself and asking 'why' all the time.

i always wish that my life was easier and that i could be more normal. and while i'm drowning myself in chocolate, i hear about a friend who just found out her faithful boyfriend of two years has been continuously cheating on her the whole time. and then i hear about the drug problems a friend's husband is having and how it is ruining their family. and then i hear the story about how a friend locked himself in the bathroom and sobbed on the floor for hours when he found out his mom had died.

and then there are moments, when i realize how great things are, and can be. i see a huddled group of people under a tree waiting for a bus during a rainstorm, and one content student dressed in cowboy attire happy to be alive and soaked from head to toe. and i see a blonde little girl in a pink ballet outfit at the grocery store, hugging the ketchup bottles while laughing and playing with her sister. and then i see the way the cute temple worker looks at her husband from across the room.

and then, my best friend and i run out in the rain to kick and jump in the puddles. and then i get a comforting feeling after a prayer where i know i'll be ok. and then i get those moments where i'm laughing so hard my side aches and i cant hardly breathe. and then the boys downstairs make us cookies because they know i've had a bad week. and then the stressed crisis management worker tells us how our volunteering is an answer to her prayers. and then my mom and dad tell me how proud they are of me.

and i realize that i should be counting my blessings. every last one of them.

Thank you...

thank you to the aggie shuttle bus driver for blasting 'brick house' today on the way to school.

thank you to the girl in my social dance class who shook her butt so vigorously while learning the cha cha, that it made all 26 students and our instructor want to walk right out of the class.

thank you to the girl who wears a different horse shirt to class everyday.

thanks. youuuu made my day.

quote of the day

"i'm eighteen now. and cute and ridiculously manly, so.. text me or call me..or love me forever, whatever works."

i have the greatest mother

me: (crying..) i'm just so emotional and can't stop crying!
mom: (in baby voice) come home so i can give you a pedicure and feed you pumpkin pie! pleeeaassseee!


i love you.

fact:

- i come off as a mean and rude person most times
- i sleep too much of the day away
- i tend to be gravitated toward the poptart aisle at walmart
- i have a bigger butt than yours
- i'm always bitter about ex boyfriends, even if i didn't like em that much
- i over analyze things and take things to heart when i shouldn't
- i spend too much time on facebook
- i have moments where i cry alot..and hysterically over small things
- i tend to always take the easy way out

..and i don't care. i'm happy with my life just the way i am.

quotes of the week

(via text)
Ry: "i just laughed out loud in my sign language class! luckily the teacher is deaf!"

and, as i was walking on campus, i somehow caught the end of this awesome conversation, followed by very nerdish giggles:

"knowing how powerful my logic and reasoning ability is, it would be pretty hard to impair!!"

quote of the day

"I'm pretty sure my mom is keeping tabs on doctor phil through twitter. how do i know? because i came home one day and internet explorer was frozen on his twitter page."